Being a mommy is hard, we carry them in our bellies for 9 months (or however we gain our adorable babies) and then we cuddles them, soothe them, feed them and they start walking and then talking and then comes the “mommy I can play my self” and “I can do it myself stages” and then its preschool where they are gone for a few hours but the first time sending them off seems like its a full day until we get to pick them up again and then we bring them to school when they start kindergarten and that step is the one where life changes as mommy forever. They are now venturing out into the world and spending full days with out us and we are home hoping that they are learning, having fun and making friends and all while knowing that those few short years having them with us all day every day and watching them learn is over because now someone else gets to see them learn new things and we wait for them to come home and tell us all about it. We have to trust that those teachers and people who they interact with at school with care for them just as we do, and fix their boo boos as close to as good as we can (We all know that mommy does it best).
The school year is coming to an end, which means yet another torn time for me as a mom where my son will be done with preschool and his excitement for the summer if at a peak but yet at the same time that feeling of knowing that in just a few months he is done with the “preschool stage” and on to kindergarten is coming fast too. I had a rough time with McKenzie heading off to Kindergarten 2 years ago and now one more is leaving the daily routine of being home with me to venture off on his own at school. It is hard for me to let them head off to school all day long, while I love seeing them grow and learn and excited for school it is the last step in their at home with mommy days and it is hard on me. No longer will I have my watchful eye , and no longer will he be home with mom. Kindergarten is the first step in growing up and being “on their own” and I wonder where did the time go when he was just a little baby that needed my cuddles, my hugs and my kisses at random times of the day. Heck there are days that I need those random hugs and kisses from him. Alyssa will still be home with me during the day, and McKenzie I have become accustom (not thrilled) that she is in school all day but another one is leaving the daily home grind and venturing off too. Even though its a few months away I am already having moments when I look at him and he is telling me in his excited voice about how he will soon be a big kid because he will be in kindergarten that I want to cry and snuggle him and not let him take that step. As hard as it is I know that I must let him go and just like when McKenzie started school I will get used to it with one less little one running around the house during the day, but I can’t say that I will enjoy it.
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