This mommy is freaking out! Trying my best not to expose it to my 7 year old daughter who is the one getting the surgery bright and early tomorrow morning that mommy is freaking but freaking out none the less. My nerves are going crazy, thinking about what could happen, I think its a mommy thing that all the possible solutions run through our minds. Then there are the thoughts of “am I doing the right thing?” Of course I know I am, of course I know that this is needed but yet I am still questioning myself about it less then 12 hours before we have to be at the surgery center for the surgery. So I do know it is for the best for her but I am still like ahhhhhh! In my head all I can think of is how much pain she will be in, how she is going to have to have pain meds, have to be put to sleep for the surgery and that they will be cutting my little baby girl and removing her tonsils and it is going to hurt her. I know she is going to cry, why because she is not big on pain tolerance and she doesn’t like blood (totally gets the not liking blood from me, I hate the site of blood!) I hate to see my babies in pain or for them to cry and I can not be there holding her hand through out it because they will take her away from me in to the room and then I have to wait until they come and get me. I am so hoping that they let me stay until she is asleep because I don’t want to leave her until she doesn’t know that I am there.
We did a Jello run the other day, I let her go bug nuts on picking out her Jello, (of course not letting her get her favorite flavor cherry because it is red and if she bleeds that could mask it and I would feel awful) and so we spent about $25 on a large amount of Jello in every flavor she wanted and then some, You know just to make sure we have enough.Tonight I will be getting a ton of the Jello made, so when we get home she can have some as soon as she wants it. Once the kiddos are in bed I am making a run to the store for a gatorade stock up, we have powerade but after using my friend google I read that gatorade is better so I am headed out to get that. We are setting up a DVD player in her room, she has her DS, the Kindle to read books on, and I downloaded some new games for her to play and while I know for the first day or so she will want to sleep I am freaking out about what if she doesn’t want to sleep, what if she plows through everything and is bored and sees the other 2 running around the house and wants to play with them and she can’t and that breaks my heart too.
So tomorrow bright and early we will leave for her surgery and until they let me back in to see her after its done and over with I will probably be freaking out.
Anyone have any advice for this mommy who is freaking out??