Birthdays are the time when as a mom I sit and I think about all the other birthdays that my kids have had, and what we did and then hop on the computer look at the pictures from when they were younger and then head to the tote full of pictures (because I am awful about getting them into albums) and I cry. I cry both tears of happiness and tears of sadness because they are growing up way to fast for my liking.
I sat on my couch on my son’s 5th birthday on Jan 16, after all the kids and hubby were sleeping and then it hit me, my Little baby boy was 5! And then the thoughts of next school year sneaked into my mind too, in the fall he is going to be in kindergarten! Kindergarten! Really already? I am so not ready for that, I have enough issues missing him when he is at school for 3 hours a day 3 days a week! How am I going to handle him going to Kindergarten and being gone all day and I can’t just go give him some mommy hugs and kisses whenever I want to? He will then get more of a mind of his own and times of mommy being the one to play with will be changed for wanting to play with his friends at school….Oh I am NOT ready for that can we please slow down the months just a tad so I can savor the few months of him not being fully in school yet please!
Last week a similar thing happened on my daughter’s 7th birthday(jan 26), now I was not as dramatic with the thoughts of school because she is in first grade and I have had 2 years to get used to her not being home during the day(not that you really get used to it its kinda like you deal with it) and I remember the little girl who let me dress her in whatever outfit i wanted her to wear and let me put her hair in pigtales (apparently when you are in first grade pigtales are not cool so she won’t let me give her pigtales anylonger) and wanted to snuggle with me on the couch. Now she has more fun things to do then snuggle with mommy, like play barbies…sigh….7 years went by so fast and with each year she is going to get older and grow more of a mind of her own and what little snuggle time I do get (which is when I get all the kids to come and snuggle in my bed and watch a movie) will be a thing of the past….oh how I am not looking forward to that. Again can we please slow down time so I can savor all I can?
And then I sit here, knowing that in a few days(February 3) my baby, my youngest little one will be 2!! 2! already? I am not handling this well at all, and her birthday is not even here yet! I have days when I look at her and I see my itty bitty baby that was just a year ago learning to walk when we were bribing her with bites of ice cream to take 2 steps to us….and now she is not walking but running, skipping, hopping, dancing, and talking! Not just talking but full blown paragraph sentences telling me what she wants and what she doesn’t like and then at random times burts out in a song (which lately has been Man or a Muppet I think she may have seen that music Video a few to many times) and yet I know the progression as I have been through it with my older 2 and I am not ready for my last little baby to not be a baby anymore, I am NOT! …..SO again I am asking can we please slow time down just a little so I can savor these itty bitty toddler moments a bit more?
I promise to only ask one more time…..Can we slow down time just a little bit so I can savor some more time with my little loves before they grow up even more? Pretty please!!!
Do you feel this way too as a parent?